Confession: I have a temper problem

This post is a confession, a venting, a raw look into my heart all in one. I wrote it for Babies Online Blog but I wanted to share it here too. Here's an excerpt.

When my 7 mo. old gets fussy in the evenings, there’s no Dad to take over soothing her. When I wake up groggy in the mornings because she woke me up demanding to nurse every 2-3 hours at night, Dad isn’t there to take over and let me sleep in for a little while. There are no extra hands to haul the stroller or baby bag while I grab all 20 lbs. of her from the car seat when I make a grocery run.

It’s been stressful, and I have to admit I struggled with my temper a few times. They were short-lived, and thank God she won’t remember my shout of “What are you crying about!”. I’m very ashamed that I struggle so much with my temper, but also feel proud that I don’t let it overpower me. I am adamant that I never raise a hand against my daughter, and this is especially difficult for me, coming from a home that practiced corporal punishment even at an early age. In short, shouting, spanks, loss of temper was modeled for me and I don’t want that legacy passed down to my daughter.

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I am extremely happy to have my husband back home. Having him away makes me acutely aware just how lucky I am to have him in my life.

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First tooth

What, already?? Oh little one, you have a bottom tooth to show off once Daddy gets home. I usually try to get a pic of your milestone but Daddy's got the camera. When he comes back, I'll snap one and post it i promise.

In the meantime, enjoy this video of you, showing off how well you can sit up now and how well you can blow a raspberry.

I need a new baby bag and need ideas

This is reposted from Babies Online Blog

JJ Cole’s System Bag Review

I bought this diaper bag when my daughter was 3 months old. The bag is touted as a system bag that can work well with strollers, or without. It comes with a sizable diaper bag which when folded, includes a handy wristlet handle and creates a pocket into which you could theoretically stuff a few diapers. The bag itself has many compartments, and comes with convenient attachments for the stroller. I like the variety of color too and found one that matches the color of our current stroller.

It’s a great bag BUT:

1. With all the little compartments, I sometimes lose track of where I stuffed which item. There’s about 15 or so pockets and such and no, I haven’t used it all.
2. Once I put a bottle in there, a change of clothes, two diapers, wipes container, my nursing cover, a toy, her little hat, extra bibs, baby food and spoon, diaper pad and a tiny bottle of disinfecting hand-gel it is simply TOO STUFFED. The little pockets don’t help when you simply have too much baby gear to bring.

With the price I paid for it, I have forced myself to use it exclusively all this time. Recently though the extra jars of food I added to the list of baby gear is making it much too crowded for comfort. I’m on a quest for a new, and roomier baby bag. Hopefully just as stylish (and yes, I do love the style of this diaper bag). Does anyone have any suggestions?

Hello Mina, Mommy's Sick

I know I sound weird to you....my voice is hoarse and at times I can't speak cause my throat hurts.

I know I look weird to you...my hair is unkempt and I've got under-eye circles darker than usual and my nose is red and puffed up...and and....well, it's not pretty. I've also got these glasses on. Doctor said to lay off the contacts.

I know I smell weird to you...vick's vapor rub, eau de sweat and halls is giving me that new smell.

I know I haven't played with the same energy. I'm sorry. Mommy's gonna get better soon. Soon. Soon. I hope.

In the meantime let me drop you off at the daycare so I can crawl into bed.